Yeah, I fucking sat there and let her yell at me, not because I'm remorseful, or because I sympathize with her, or because I even think she is right in any goddamn fucking sense. I did it because I was at least smart enough to keep my goddamn mouth shut otherwise that fucking slutbag of a mother would use her "parental authority" that she gets from my step-dad, by the way, because I don't fucking respect her, and have no reason to, and she's more of a fucking teenager than I am.

Yeah, my grades sucked, so the Adderall was pointless. EXCEPT FOR THE FACT YOU STOLE THEM FROM ME AND WERE THE REASON I RAN OUT SO FAST ALL THE TIME YOU THICK FUCK!

Yeah, I just stopped trying in the middle of the year and didn't start again till the end of the last quarter, BECAUSE TO BE COMPLETELY FUCKING HONEST I DIDNT PLAN ON LIVING THE ENTIRE YEAR OUT. I WAS FUCKING SUICIDAL, AND SHE WAS TOO FUCKING OBLIVIOUS TO REALIZE IT.

IS SHE THAT FUCKING DENSE?

NO, IS SHE THAT. FUCKING. DENSE.

Here's something else mom, how is it that EVERYTHING I SAY ABOUT YOUR PATHETIC FUCKING EXISTENCE FITS IN WITH WHAT SEVERAL GODDAMN PSYCHOLOGISTS SAY TOO?!

YEAH, YOU ARE AN INSECURE BITCH WHO CARES MORE ABOUT HER FRIENDS THAN HER FAMILY. I KNOW BECAUSE YOU BLOW OFF YOUR HUSBAND FOR YOUR CO-WORKER'S BAR HOPPING NIGHTS.

YEAH, YOU ARE A PSYCHOTIC BITCH WHO LOVES TO BLAME OTHERS. THAT'S WHY YOU'VE HAD THREE FUCKING PARTNERS THAT YOU'VE HAD KIDS WITH.

And you know what? I don't fucking respect you. Not one tiny fucking little bit. You gave birth to me, not because you loved me, but because you wanted to spite your family. Because you wanted to hurt the people who had abandoned you. I was a tool, they said abort, so you keep, they said right, you said left. That's all everyone EVER FUCKING IS TO YOU.

And you blame ME?

YOU REALLY FUCKING BLAME ME?!

I FUCKING HATE YOU, I HATE EVERY GODDAMN LITTLE THING.

YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME, YOU LOVE BEING SENTIMENTAL TO YOUR OLDEST SON, YOU SAY YOU CARE ABOUT ME, BUT WHERE AM I ON YOUR PRIORITIES MOM? HUH? AM I ABOVE YOUR FRIENDS? AM I ABOVE YOUR JOB? NO. I'M NOT.

Fuck you, now I see why this one ALMOST left you. You blame everyone else for everything, considering EVERYONE IN YOUR FUCKING LIFE HAS TRIED TELLING YOU THIS YOU DENSE FUCK.

I'm done trying to be there for you, I'm done trying to be the best son I can be for you. You just care about your life, you don't care if your son is ready to fucking hang himself, you don't care if your son hates you. All you care about is you, you, you.

I've always fucking been th ere for you. ALWAYS. I've ALWAYS BEEN THAT SHOULDER FOR YOU TO CRY ON, YOU'VE CONFIDED EVERYTHING IN ME.

But when I have a problem, I get punished, I'm just another teenage kid. It doesn't matter what's going on in my mind, just what you fucking see mom.

I'm done. Fuck you.